The cure against fear of love...

[dwim]

The Philophobic Cure

I suffer from philophobia
something - something about love
something - something about falling in love
But I like you
like...

The heart goes up to my neck
caught up in the neck
& I forgot what I want to say
& I can't...

I walked into the cities
& I'm reading words - WORDS!-
written on the sidewalks
& I find myself stepping on poems
while reading them backwards
passing by guys with that
lost look in their eyes
mumbling regret about
some words they shoulda said.

I gotta get away from all these
love commercializations &
the society fucked up idea about
no love = failure
Don't know - where should I go?
Maybe Havana would be the place
Yes, down in Cuba I can get away
get away from those dovey couples
& smoke big fat cigars
like I got some style
& promises of a dream.

But I'm holding a pen
with the right hand held by
my left hand while
I'm writing something like...

& I'm forgetting old memories
burning up in my mind
& I'm ready to move ahead
but I'm thinking like...

I see the sun come up
I thought about something beautiful
then I perished the thought
as the automatic voice on the phone
tells me to deposit another heart
& I'm fumbling in my deep pocket
like somethig crazy or other
& my palms got sweaty on a
jingle of coins - clink - clink -
& I hung up the phone.

Play me something smooth flute player
Serenade my heart guitar player
Soothe my mind as I sit here with
a cup of joe & a cigarette
deep in my thought like
denial & I'm screaming like
"I DON'T WANT TO FEEL!
I DON'T WANT TO FEEL!"
like it's a deep rooted disease
that causes man to stare out the windows
but it's too late
& here I am in a trap.

Here I go...

I could sing a love song
write a love poem but
it comes down to...

I could say meaningless things
except for three meaningful things
but it clich? like...

The love manifesto demands change
that straight forwardness to
keep you out of strait jacket
& I say...

Yes! I say that I want you!
& I want you
like an addict want crack!

Damn...
it came out wrong again.

[Chilimuffin]

this, as usual, is really good. I especially like the telephone stanza and the use of ironic self-deprecating humor... the kind of poem that makes me want to smoke in the morning, and I don't smoke anymore....

[Ski]

It made me feel as if I was reading a song. So in that light I thought it was VERY good.

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Ski
Last of the Freelance Drinkers
Greatest sword fighter in Michigan
The man in the black Trans Am
Miral's Slave
"In the darkest hour,hope springs eternal"

[Fénix]

I love it, it was very entertaining and just kinda fun for me. I don't know why. Just really cool.

-The Fiery One

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"I've had to spend the majority of my life vigilant against the thoughts and emotions of others pentrating my mind. But just this once, as the psychic dam begins to burst, I dont try to stop it... because the only emotion that comes crashing through the breakwall...
is hope.
It washes over everyone. Infectious... growing in strength...
Connecting us... uniting us... until suddenly...
strangers dont seem so strange anymore."
Jean Grey- X Men # 71

PROUD SLAVEBOY OF JELYMO

Enter Daredevil at Hero Realm

[gollum]

dwim-remember that United States of Poetry video thing we were talking about? that's exactly what i saw--this pome, you reading it, walking over the sidewalks....yeah. i really like this. it's mesmerizing. (and the structure, with all the trail offs.... that's really kool too.)

-g

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Sometimes i think everyone on this board is crazy. The rest of the time i'm sure. -Dan
somehow i see [gollum] clinging to a tower and rousingly calling for a new world order. -starky

Yeah, I'm a real prize. Tonight, I'm a bronze medal.

[Branflakes]

Wow, damn fine one, dwim.

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Branflakes, the ninja lesbian milk getter bunny protecting flirt.
The one called "brain" and "brandiflakes" and....
I'm tired of the silent majority. Silence equals death.
Life is what you make it.
"I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality"-Savage Garden
You're going to have to deal with my ego at some point.

A dark, black ray of sunshine.

[dwim]

Thanks for the compliments all.
Yes, gollum I remember the United States of Poetry videos I saw on PBS. I got the CD of those readings.